quite a weekend.

It was quite an interesting weekend, that's for sure. starting with thursday... met many, many new people and saw a few old ones... thurs and fri night were pretty ridiculous. it's been awhile since i couldn't remember most of what happened, that's probably a good thing. Highlight of Thurs: reunited with one of my favorite people of all time <3 Friday; some old friends came to visit and it was a good time :) at least until later... i survived. thanks to my life-saver, always thankful. Saturday; round III with my love darcy. me and darc allll weekend long. and 2 pictures to show for it :( FAIL! even though i was completely aware the entire night, it still turned out to be an intense night in a whole new direction... which can pretty much be summed up in a few words: blood, Paul, chinese food, Zelda boots... you never know what you're gonna find in this crazy city. But somehow it always turns out to be all righttttt :) Now for another week of classes... here we go :(


payce.

one month and 8 days...

oh how i long for winter break...
anyways, it was a satisfactory weekend at home.. 
besides the fact that I was looking to replenish my 
week's worth of sleep, which did not end up happening..
Friday; i did experience the last CV football game of the season and reunite with my still-in-high school friends, AND my bff cody decided to surprise us all with his presence :)
it was a good night with my loves heather, chels, and code, i've missed them dearly..
Saturday; consisted of tearing down my art-covered walls and boxing up my things to prepare my room for painting and new carpet. oh how white my room really is beneath all my work. i was able to tour our new home :) with my other loves, jen & meg. we decided that pretty much every room would be a PARTY ROOM. and they get to sleep in the little blue room with the freezer. It just made me all the more excited.. for a new home, christmas, family, a new start... that night i was once again reunited with the juniors and seniors of conestoga valley. we are pathetic, ha. oh well, we have to do something when us college kids come home. but that turned out to be an exceptional night as well....
Sunday; an eye-opening, lesson-learning type of day.. church was interesting and somehow fitting. who would've thought... spent the day with family and got to play with some next-door puppies<3 had a remarkable linner and got ready to come back to the big city... what a long, long car ride. metaphorically-speaking. good, old dad. never stops rambling about life, that's for sure... finally, got back, woke myself up with the help of some coffee and prepared to study for two midterms coming up in the next two days. it was another interesting night to top off my weekend, in a good way :)
Monday & Today; banged out two midterms with less studying and better feelings about the outcome than the first time... how does that make sense?
I'm not sure, but it doesn't matter, i'm ecstatic. All that's left to do is this lingering 4 pager for art history and an essay as well. A little bit of reading and some laundry.. and I will finally make it to freedom for at least the next two weeks, i hope. thanksgiving cannot come soon enough...
Arrivederci amori ~

Love, I hope we get old
I hope we can find a way
Seeing it all
Love, I hope we can be
I hope I can find a way
Of letting you see

bRoKeN ReCoRd

     It has occurred to me that my life for the past two and a half years has been a broken record, repeating the same sounds, the same verse... but now, all of sudden it's taken a new lead, the record's been smashed, obliterated. gone. and i've found a fresh one. my own. it's exhilarating... truly. i really don't know what comes next, for once, it's a different feeling; never knowing what to expect...

what. a. joke.

All I can do is laugh now. ha
How seriously it's become a joke.
Now I see that, now I see.
Thank you for proof, for making me feel like I made sense,
Like I made the right choice.
Now I know.


My love, Heather, came on friday and delivered me from loneliness. We had an amazing night with amazing people :) just what i needed. i'm so glad i got to see so many friends in one night.
Saturday followed and flew by. A day of laundry, food, sleep, showering, and getting ready to go out again... the cheetah and the school girl returned to face another night of funnn. It started off on a bad note with the outrageous weather and the issue of finding food. But things got better when we met up again with our new favorite people :)
It went from bad to good to bad... the track house. never again. i couldn't move; got extremely frustrated and angry as well. my favorite friend and i had a <3 to <3. we finally left.
we moved on to a second scene. well, at least i did. i really just wanted to see one person at the time and so i did. and then it got good again :) at least for a little while...
it was insane how back and forth the night was. i could hardly handle it. eventually we made it home.. well everyone made it somewhere. heather and i were reunited. and we all turned in.
emotions were running high but they were sorted out and dealt with.


then today. a long day. i'm extremely tired. i haven't slept enough for quite awhile and there's still a paper waiting to be written by 8 am tomorrow. what a day. i can't even explain or let alone feel like even replaying it in my mind. that's all.

     Why does it always feel this way? I don't know where to turn to fill this void. It's there, i've realized. But no one can fill it. Not even someone who once could. Not the person i spontaneously chose right after. Not the determined one who wanted so badly to prove something. And now not the new one; the stimulating one. None. No one. It all leads to the same conclusion. Why even try. Or get your hopes up every time. Or waste your time and thought. Hmm? Beats me. We'll wait and see. Really the only thing to do these days...

mmmm coffee..

Well, it's official. my family is moving, 
yes, MOVING. one house over. HA! 
oh, how long it's been that we've talked 
about moving and now that I'm in 
college, not even living there anymore, 
they finally decide to move. literally 10 
ft. away. wow. I'm soo excited though,
its indescribable... I am glad that I get 
to miss all the work that needs to be 
done to our current house.. but it's all 
a very exciting process. Christmas 
2009 in our new home.. and winter 
break as well ;) it will be a good 
time haha.
                                                                                                                
                       

    hmm also, there's "a new hope" within me. thank you for that.

who knows what will happen... i've missed you. sincerely. it was
only a matter of time, as usual. i don't know why it is this way,
but somehow it always is. it always finds its way. eventually.




                                                                                                                                

I'm also excited for HALLOWEEN.
although, again, I'm paranoid of the 
po po. oh well, audrey hepburn must 
make an appearance at BOO-fest.

and, my love, heather may make 

an appearance as well :)

that would just be the icing on my cake.