One specific thing, well many, that I thought about this weekend was... blessings.. of course, Thanksgiving break, think about what you're thankful for, but I never really realized all the things that I truly was thankful for. I spend so much time being stressed and frustrated and ignorant of the important fragments of my life. I was dreading having to work, especially at odd hours of the night, dreading finals, dreading certain situations, and it finally became clear that all i was doing was wasting my time and energy on worthless thoughts. I changed my chain of thought in a whole new direction... gratitude. What a word. What does it mean? Def; the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness. I thought about what I was looking forward to... and this is what I came up with: 1. getting to finally see and spend time with my aunts and uncles, little cousins, bryn & seth, and my immediate family 2. getting to spend time with best friends and a certain special someone :) 3. getting to enjoy a HUGE bountiful meal that we can so easily afford.. 4. getting our home ready to move into a bigger, nicer one :) 5. getting a chance to earn some cash 6. getting to go shopping a few times... and the list goes on & on, but I don't feel like listing more.. it turned out to be a weekend of revelations...
Quick recap;
Wednesday; the weekend started early this time... riding the train, listening to music; something i might have to do more often, so relaxing.. reaching thorndale and my ride to lancaster... spending the evening with my favorite person in the world<3
Thursday; thanksgiving. family, food, games (hysterical "dirty" games that is. oh how deceived we were about the joke game) "What did the sign say on the door to the brothel?" "Beat it, we're closed." point taken. & to top it off: a couple songs from my favorite boy
Black Friday; work = 2am. until 11am. i survived it, all that matters. a lethargic, lazy day followed & a celebration of my best friend meggie's birthday that evening with the "home boys" and molls..
Saturday; more work. roadtrip to allentown w/ mother to meet up with the Kreider family :) to of course, once again, see my dearest beloved. I'm a true fan. It was an interesting night and much fun<3
Sunday; finally attended church. relived childhood memories.. hoss's, jolene's house, geraldson drive.. what a day. college grocery shopping, then off to TU. Interview with dad on the way there, even more perplexing than the last time.. i'm determined to make his life an indie film. Spent the rest of my evening in philly obsessing over my soon-to-be new room: colors, furniture, layout, patterns, function, etc. so much excitement... i am, i'm dreaming big...
Monday, November 30, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
"let them be your life..."
words from a true friend. whom i miss, a lot.
anyways, weekly update;;
Thursday; i found a contemporary kind of awareness that disturbed my soul. Requiem for a Dream... enough said. Completely blew me away in another state of mind. And the irony of my mood and what followed the credits... utter hypocrisy. Truly? I'm sick of the unnecessary. It was a late night.
Friday; i was ready for home. finally made it to lanc. thanks to my bff Nate :) came home to the chaos of redoing the house, as usual. But it turned out to be an incredible night consisting of two of my favorite things: sushi and a certain musically-talented male, mmmm ;) that pretty much sums it up, ha<3
Saturday; i contributed to the havoc of our home by painting the trim in my "old" bedroom. it's hard to believe this significant change is in less than 2 weeks... i am euphoric. that evening was comprised of driving, for once, and arriving to see d mills in concert :) amazing, as predicted. Making a swift exit, Meggie & I prepared to attend MKU reunion round II with the CV boys. Always a joy.
Sunday; somehow i got stuck with making food and driving all weekend when i'm the "visitor" ha but i enjoyed a phenomenal sub for lunch with the fam. Right afterwards it was time to hit the road. Back to the city for only 3 days. pointless. nathanael and kavon decided to give me a visit soon after arrival. and once again, i somehow got sucked into making an appearance in good old 224, the point of no return. at least this time i had my trusty sidekick D along...
Overall; it was a fabulous weekend and i'm looking forward to another one in 2 1/2 days :)
anyways, weekly update;;
Thursday; i found a contemporary kind of awareness that disturbed my soul. Requiem for a Dream... enough said. Completely blew me away in another state of mind. And the irony of my mood and what followed the credits... utter hypocrisy. Truly? I'm sick of the unnecessary. It was a late night.
Friday; i was ready for home. finally made it to lanc. thanks to my bff Nate :) came home to the chaos of redoing the house, as usual. But it turned out to be an incredible night consisting of two of my favorite things: sushi and a certain musically-talented male, mmmm ;) that pretty much sums it up, ha<3
Saturday; i contributed to the havoc of our home by painting the trim in my "old" bedroom. it's hard to believe this significant change is in less than 2 weeks... i am euphoric. that evening was comprised of driving, for once, and arriving to see d mills in concert :) amazing, as predicted. Making a swift exit, Meggie & I prepared to attend MKU reunion round II with the CV boys. Always a joy.
Sunday; somehow i got stuck with making food and driving all weekend when i'm the "visitor" ha but i enjoyed a phenomenal sub for lunch with the fam. Right afterwards it was time to hit the road. Back to the city for only 3 days. pointless. nathanael and kavon decided to give me a visit soon after arrival. and once again, i somehow got sucked into making an appearance in good old 224, the point of no return. at least this time i had my trusty sidekick D along...
Overall; it was a fabulous weekend and i'm looking forward to another one in 2 1/2 days :)
Sunday, November 15, 2009
quite a weekend.
It was quite an interesting weekend, that's for sure. starting with thursday... met many, many new people and saw a few old ones... thurs and fri night were pretty ridiculous. it's been awhile since i couldn't remember most of what happened, that's probably a good thing. Highlight of Thurs: reunited with one of my favorite people of all time <3 Friday; some old friends came to visit and it was a good time :) at least until later... i survived. thanks to my life-saver, always thankful. Saturday; round III with my love darcy. me and darc allll weekend long. and 2 pictures to show for it :( FAIL! even though i was completely aware the entire night, it still turned out to be an intense night in a whole new direction... which can pretty much be summed up in a few words: blood, Paul, chinese food, Zelda boots... you never know what you're gonna find in this crazy city. But somehow it always turns out to be all righttttt :) Now for another week of classes... here we go :(
payce.
payce.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
one month and 8 days...
oh how i long for winter break...
anyways, it was a satisfactory weekend at home..
besides the fact that I was looking to replenish my
week's worth of sleep, which did not end up happening..
Friday; i did experience the last CV football game of the season and reunite with my still-in-high school friends, AND my bff cody decided to surprise us all with his presence :)
it was a good night with my loves heather, chels, and code, i've missed them dearly..
Saturday; consisted of tearing down my art-covered walls and boxing up my things to prepare my room for painting and new carpet. oh how white my room really is beneath all my work. i was able to tour our new home :) with my other loves, jen & meg. we decided that pretty much every room would be a PARTY ROOM. and they get to sleep in the little blue room with the freezer. It just made me all the more excited.. for a new home, christmas, family, a new start... that night i was once again reunited with the juniors and seniors of conestoga valley. we are pathetic, ha. oh well, we have to do something when us college kids come home. but that turned out to be an exceptional night as well....
Sunday; an eye-opening, lesson-learning type of day.. church was interesting and somehow fitting. who would've thought... spent the day with family and got to play with some next-door puppies<3 had a remarkable linner and got ready to come back to the big city... what a long, long car ride. metaphorically-speaking. good, old dad. never stops rambling about life, that's for sure... finally, got back, woke myself up with the help of some coffee and prepared to study for two midterms coming up in the next two days. it was another interesting night to top off my weekend, in a good way :)
Monday & Today; banged out two midterms with less studying and better feelings about the outcome than the first time... how does that make sense?
I'm not sure, but it doesn't matter, i'm ecstatic. All that's left to do is this lingering 4 pager for art history and an essay as well. A little bit of reading and some laundry.. and I will finally make it to freedom for at least the next two weeks, i hope. thanksgiving cannot come soon enough...
Arrivederci amori ~
anyways, it was a satisfactory weekend at home..
besides the fact that I was looking to replenish my
week's worth of sleep, which did not end up happening..
Friday; i did experience the last CV football game of the season and reunite with my still-in-high school friends, AND my bff cody decided to surprise us all with his presence :)
it was a good night with my loves heather, chels, and code, i've missed them dearly..
Saturday; consisted of tearing down my art-covered walls and boxing up my things to prepare my room for painting and new carpet. oh how white my room really is beneath all my work. i was able to tour our new home :) with my other loves, jen & meg. we decided that pretty much every room would be a PARTY ROOM. and they get to sleep in the little blue room with the freezer. It just made me all the more excited.. for a new home, christmas, family, a new start... that night i was once again reunited with the juniors and seniors of conestoga valley. we are pathetic, ha. oh well, we have to do something when us college kids come home. but that turned out to be an exceptional night as well....
Sunday; an eye-opening, lesson-learning type of day.. church was interesting and somehow fitting. who would've thought... spent the day with family and got to play with some next-door puppies<3 had a remarkable linner and got ready to come back to the big city... what a long, long car ride. metaphorically-speaking. good, old dad. never stops rambling about life, that's for sure... finally, got back, woke myself up with the help of some coffee and prepared to study for two midterms coming up in the next two days. it was another interesting night to top off my weekend, in a good way :)
Monday & Today; banged out two midterms with less studying and better feelings about the outcome than the first time... how does that make sense?
I'm not sure, but it doesn't matter, i'm ecstatic. All that's left to do is this lingering 4 pager for art history and an essay as well. A little bit of reading and some laundry.. and I will finally make it to freedom for at least the next two weeks, i hope. thanksgiving cannot come soon enough...
Arrivederci amori ~
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
bRoKeN ReCoRd
It has occurred to me that my life for the past two and a half years has been a broken record, repeating the same sounds, the same verse... but now, all of sudden it's taken a new lead, the record's been smashed, obliterated. gone. and i've found a fresh one. my own. it's exhilarating... truly. i really don't know what comes next, for once, it's a different feeling; never knowing what to expect...
Sunday, November 1, 2009
what. a. joke.
All I can do is laugh now. ha
How seriously it's become a joke.
Now I see that, now I see.
Thank you for proof, for making me feel like I made sense,
Like I made the right choice.
Now I know.
My love, Heather, came on friday and delivered me from loneliness. We had an amazing night with amazing people :) just what i needed. i'm so glad i got to see so many friends in one night.
Saturday followed and flew by. A day of laundry, food, sleep, showering, and getting ready to go out again... the cheetah and the school girl returned to face another night of funnn. It started off on a bad note with the outrageous weather and the issue of finding food. But things got better when we met up again with our new favorite people :)
It went from bad to good to bad... the track house. never again. i couldn't move; got extremely frustrated and angry as well. my favorite friend and i had a <3 to <3. we finally left.
we moved on to a second scene. well, at least i did. i really just wanted to see one person at the time and so i did. and then it got good again :) at least for a little while...
it was insane how back and forth the night was. i could hardly handle it. eventually we made it home.. well everyone made it somewhere. heather and i were reunited. and we all turned in.
emotions were running high but they were sorted out and dealt with.
then today. a long day. i'm extremely tired. i haven't slept enough for quite awhile and there's still a paper waiting to be written by 8 am tomorrow. what a day. i can't even explain or let alone feel like even replaying it in my mind. that's all.
How seriously it's become a joke.
Now I see that, now I see.
Thank you for proof, for making me feel like I made sense,
Like I made the right choice.
Now I know.
My love, Heather, came on friday and delivered me from loneliness. We had an amazing night with amazing people :) just what i needed. i'm so glad i got to see so many friends in one night.
Saturday followed and flew by. A day of laundry, food, sleep, showering, and getting ready to go out again... the cheetah and the school girl returned to face another night of funnn. It started off on a bad note with the outrageous weather and the issue of finding food. But things got better when we met up again with our new favorite people :)
It went from bad to good to bad... the track house. never again. i couldn't move; got extremely frustrated and angry as well. my favorite friend and i had a <3 to <3. we finally left.
we moved on to a second scene. well, at least i did. i really just wanted to see one person at the time and so i did. and then it got good again :) at least for a little while...
it was insane how back and forth the night was. i could hardly handle it. eventually we made it home.. well everyone made it somewhere. heather and i were reunited. and we all turned in.
emotions were running high but they were sorted out and dealt with.
then today. a long day. i'm extremely tired. i haven't slept enough for quite awhile and there's still a paper waiting to be written by 8 am tomorrow. what a day. i can't even explain or let alone feel like even replaying it in my mind. that's all.
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