a lovely day

    Well, where to begin.. I guess where I left off... friday evening went well.. a night with my girlsss and their boys of course... it made me miss mine. but i got a full stomach out of it, obviously 3/4 full of a certain liquid but the other fourth was complete with eggs, bagels and cream cheese, toast, sausage, all at 2:30 in the morning thanks to dave bollenbach, professional chef. it was quite an evening. 


    i planned on getting lots of homework and other things done during the day on saturday but of course the didn't happen.. only sleeping in, mcdonald's, the SAC, more sleeping, and that's about it... Danielle & I were basically zombies; words didn't even leave our mouths. i was just 'patiently waiting... but my mind was made up, thinking time's gonna wait for us.." haha well anyways, basically i was waiting all day to see my lover and finnaallllyyy around 10 pm he arrived :) presenting a dozen red roses, taylor lautner sweet-tarts, and last but not least my favorite liquids around... some good old blush wine and a special treat of bac. orange ;)
       after devising several different schemes on how to get him and the "presents" through security and into my dorm room unsuspected, we managed to waltz on through unchecked and with our supplies in what else but his guitar case.. the beginning of a magical evening. Meredith gone and darcy out and about highlighting the world, danielle singing away in her room... dar & i got to spend some quality time together :) it was a good night. sunday, Valentine's day, sooo many haters around here.. i mean yea it's obvious better when you have someone, but it's still not like a huge deal, it's only if you make it one. anyways, it started with a delicious breakfast at ihop on chestnust street... mmmm strawberry banana pancakes, yum. then, it just turned into a lazy, relaxing sunday.. and really that's all i ever need...




btw, saw this and enjoyed it..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzq3srbYEUY

just some thoughts...

Hmm.. it's been a slow couple of days, while being somewhat snowed in, in this giant city of love. so much snow... so much time to sit around and think.. i have been rather down again lately, this time i've been making excuses which may be somewhat credible, it's that time of the month, the weather, etc. but really there shouldn't be any excuses or reasons because i shouldn't be feeling like that when there really isn't a "good" reason. 
         but i'm ok with it. i'm over it. i've just been trying to figure out what's behind those emotions.. why do i really feel like that? after reading other people's numerous blogs, i've been figuring it out... it's ME. As in, lately i have been putting myself on the back burner, but why?... i haven't tried to go out, well besides my lock haven adventures, but even then i wasn't "trying", i just have had no care for myself, how i look, who i meet, where i go... 
         it's really because i'm thinking of someone else and it's not all about me anymore, and that's really what i'm realizing, dependence. it's a scary thought, and it should be. the fear of losing something or really.. someone. but it shouldn't be about fear, it shouldn't bring you down. it's just a realization and i'm learning to be ok with it. Realizing and moving on. and i guess after awhile, it all builds up and needs a release... tonight will be my new release, watch out philadelphia, here i come.. tonight, i too, will put myself first, well within limits of course haha, it's gonna be a good night...

Down

           Week #3 of classes... same old, same old. Although, the work just seems to be piling up when i only have 4 classes.. a little unexpected. chapters upon chapters behind in people, places, and the environment, with no point or direction really in the lectures.. just a tiring hour or so. i truly wanted to stop drinking coffee due to the fact that it seems like my mind has been all over the place lately, unable to stay focused and rapidly changing from one thought to the next; but it was guaranteed that i would ultimately fall asleep in art history if i didn't have some.. even though Tyler doesn't whip up the best coffee ever, it did the job. Prof. philip betancourt always makes me crack a smile.. he just reminds me of a younger version of my grandpa, telling tales of history with added bits of his lame attempts at personal humor... afterwards, i got my sushi fix at the insanely crowded SAC where it'd be nearly impossible to get any other food, where you'd have to wait in an hour-long line..
           Within the past few days i've been rather down for who knows what reason... i truly don't know why, i have no reason to be, it's just an annoying feeling. Thankfully after 2D design, i get to sit back and relax on this thursday night with my favorite boy and my weekly glass of wine.. then, tomorrow it's back to the 717 for the third weekend in a row.. but not for long before meg & i head out to lock haven for the weekend... that should be interesting. i'm excited to be going out and having fun with friends for once.. but i know all the work i have due next week will still be in the back of my mind.. and i won't be able to get any of it done over the weekend... reading, english paper, morphing project... due mon, tues, and wed... i have a lot ahead of me. hopefully, i'll be able to let go and relax.

Dream #1

So last night i remembered parts of my dreams, so here it goes...
Part 1: It started off with my dad and i in a car driving around rockvale outlets... and i happened to notice the best friend girl from the princess diaries standing along the curb.. i was like "dad, she's famous! what's she doing here?" and then I proceeded to see another famous women, i'm not sure who it was, in a car.. and then we were turning out of the outlets and in the car behind us was biggie smalls.. why? i have no idea... and then we kept driving up the road with them behind us... they turned into really what is the target parking lot, but in my dream it was the american music theatre... doors were open on the side and i could see an array of celebrities with cocktail glasses and glamorous apparel... we kept driving down then road though until we finally got to this random place where we were attending one of my tennis banquets... i remember my dad was trying to drive in the building in the wrong areas until he was finally directed to the parking lot... we finally sat down with the Lewis family. Erin, Aimee, and I.. and suddenly i hear this christmas song, "walking in a winter wonderland..." but it's no ordinary voice, it's darry miller, of course. i was like "wow, i was unaware he sings christmas songs..."
Part 2: Next, I remember being in a car and pulling up to darcy's house, even though i'm unaware of what it actually looks like... she comes out, with her hair in a huge bun atop her head, about to go to the movies with friends, and i told her about all the famous people that i saw and how we should go stalk them... she says "ok, so like 3 am we'll go?" i said "ok, why not?" then, for some reason it was me, darry, darcy, and some random other guys at darcy's house and we were inside and then outside and there was snow, but i dont remember exactly what we were doing... and then my dream redirected to facebook and i saw on joe jung's (one of my former good friends) page the results of an application called "I found my lil' sis's for 2010" and of course i was number one, and eden was on there and so was molly... and that's about all i remember from my dreams as of last night... to be continued....

Dreams

I think I'm going to start writing about my insane psycho dreams... it seems to be almost every night that i have several crazy, random, intense dreams... and i'm going to write about them on here..